8 months 3 weeks

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• October 18, 2012 at 7:42 am #8691
  salvarez91

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  In about 3 months it will be a year since I got the procedure done. Since then, I have had nothing but great experiences while dilating, I wash’t going to let this thing win. It was a long battle, but in the end worth fighting for. I am not going to lie, there where many times where I just wanted to give up, I would get back in the “why me?” mode, “why do I have to do this, why can’t I just be normal?” I was lucky to have my boyfriend in times like that, and if he wasn’t able to be there, this forum was my support system. All I am saying is that, yeah, it’s tough but we aren’t alone anymore. Just by reading these posts, it would get me all excited and motivate me to keep going and say, one day I too will be there. Ladies just keep believing that, because it does happen, trust me. I dilate every day for an hr and a half, and sleep with medium every other day. I have never fallen back or regressed, because I followed everything Dr.Pacik told me, I was too afraid of going to that dark place again and so I kept going. There where some days where things happened and I couldn’t dilate, but all I did was continue the next day and it was like it never happened. I am in a very happy place, we both are… let me tell you, the sex is great! We have a reward in the end ladies! 😀 😀

  October 18, 2012 at 7:53 pm #10462
  Heather34

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  Hi salvarez! I absolutely LOVE reading your post and HUGE congrats on your tremendous success! :):):):)

  October 22, 2012 at 10:13 pm #10476
  coffee

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  congrats! I too at times feel like that, but i am willing to keep working hard and as best as i can.

  November 8, 2012 at 6:41 pm #10671
  coffee

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  Hello, here lately i feel overwhelmed, though i still dilate every night even though i am nervous, I don’t know where my anxiety is coming from. I am so worried and i have hard time relaxing, I feel at times negative, I feel I am getting comfortable with dilating. I tried 6 last week one time, so I am trying to work my way back up! Maybe i Need to change my mind set and know if i keep pushing myself this will work for me as well, when i read other post about other patients success in a few days i get down about it, and i feel whats wrong with me. I am very happy for women like myself who have suffered for so many years, I feel I am struggling. Keep up the good work. I find myself getting depressed because, well feels like everyone succeeds in a couple of days or weeks. I will just have to keep praying and journaling and continue to press on. I am very appreciative of everything. Just sometimes I have these lingering thoughts, I don’t wanna regress or give up, but in my mind I thought this would be a quick fix, and it isn’t it takes work and effort.

  November 8, 2012 at 6:44 pm #10672
  coffee

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  I am feeling very depressed and unsure of myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  November 8, 2012 at 11:10 pm #10674
  Nakitalab

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  Coffee, hang in there. You can do this. Just take it one day at a time and try to push those negative thoughts out of your head. I know it is easier said than done as I have my own demons I’m fighting with when it comes to this healing process. That is awesome that you tried #6 last week! Are you able to dilate every day? I’m finding that it is so important to stay on schedule and dilate the 2 hours a day and sleep with #4 every other night like Dr. Pacik suggested. Sometimes the day is super busy and so I stay up late so that I can get my dilating in and send my log in. Dilating two hours a day not only works my muscles but it is also a huge confidence builder. My mind seems to be my biggest obstacle right now. Like Dr. Pacik has said so many times, I need my mind to catch up with my body. I totally understand how hard it is not to compare my progress with someone else who has posted on the Forum. That is a normal reaction, but when those old negative thoughts start to invade my mind I try to push them out by remembering the counseling we had and what other women have shared on the Forum. I guess….fake it until you make it. You are doing great, Coffee. Don’t let your mind tell you differently. I’m here for you 24/7 if you ever want to talk, text, e-mail. You’re not alone and you can do this! I promise!

  November 9, 2012 at 5:11 am #10677
  arose

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  Coffee, I’ve just replied to you in your other post… thinking of you, be strong and keep going! x