Just wanted a quick post to say that after a few weeks of weekly Maze appointments, then appointments once every 2-4 weeks (after I became more comfortable with dilating), I am now able to dilate rather comfortably with the very largest dilator (as of a couple months ago – now I am keeping up with the dilating to ensure I don’t lose any of my progress!)
This comes from me being a very difficult case – I couldn’t wear tampons from the pain/fear, and the thought of dilating with even the smallest dilator gave me immense fear. The physical portion of the first couple appointments were incredibly nerve-wracking; I was prescribed Xanax to take before each following appointment.
That being said, the Maze staff was welcoming, knowledgeable, and understanding. They never pushed me further than I was comfortable going.
It feels awesome to be “graduated,” and it is the hugest weight off of my shoulders. I feel strong and proud that I was able to overcome my vaginismus (haven’t tried p-in-v yet, but I feel pretty confident about it 🙂 ). When I was able to move up in dilator sizes every appointment, I felt accomplished and motivated.
Just wanted to reach out and share a bit of my story. While there were times of frustration and times I wanted to give up, I’m so glad I went out of my comfort zone to make the first appointment and persevere with the help of the lovely Maze staff!
