😀 😀 😀 😀 😀 Okay I had my procedure September 18, 2012. I am pleased with the progress I have made, though i still feel my anxiety is still very high, hoping that will subside in time. I must say I never thought i would be able to insert a dilator, but to my surprise i have with my husband help, he has been a gem, very supportive and firm, I thought i would not be able to insert #5 last night, I did, he kept telling me I could do it, so i said a prayer held my breath and prayed, and it went in, though i had some burning. I really felt in my heart that i would have to deal with this all my life, and i was preparing myself to do that come what may, I still get very nervous and shaky when it is time to dilate, but i know in my heart this will help me and help me to be successful. I am very thankful to Dr. Pacik, Ellen, Jen, Janet, everyone. Ellen was so firm with me but i needed that, if she hadn’t been i would have given up, I appreciate it so much!! I know i probably wore everyone out that day, Something you fear all these years is scary to face when you are actually about to deal with it head on. I have always push these to the sides and never dealt with things!!! So for the first time in my life i am dealing with a scary issue and working on the problem, I am still very anxious, thinking this to good, but i know it will take work and more work on my part to be successful. I haven’t really had to push myself till now!! I feel I still have a long way to go, but for now i will focus on one thing at time so that I don’t get overwhelmed. Hopefully in time i will be able to dilate myself. Thanks to my husband who has been there for the long haul!!!
Dr.Pacik and to his wonderful team thank you!! I never thought I would see this day in a million years, never!!!!
