Hi Hilda! I’m so sorry for your frustrating experience! This is a VERY normal setback on the way to intercourse. Dilating does a ton to get your muscles prepared for the experience, but they’re still not the same as a penis so it can be tricky for sure.
The best way to smooth the way for an intercourse experience is to get comfortable using a dilator size that’s LARGER than your partner’s penis. That makes it so that the actual penis itself is almost a relief (especially since they’re generally more comfortable than a rigid plastic dilator). Be sure you’re using tons of lube and go super slowly at first–it won’t be like the movies where you’re able to just go at it right away. You can also do other things to get you more transitionally comfortable by being penetrated by your partner like having him insert your dilators for you. Finally, and most importantly, give yourself tons of grace and patience. It takes how long it takes to get comfortable with intercourse in the end, and as impatient as you likely are, taking things one step at a time and not trying to rush yourself will make you more successful in the end.
I can tell you’re getting really close, so keep going! You’ll get there before you know it!
