I’m 22 years old and I have not had sex yet or ever been in a relationship and I’m already so scared that I found this online place where I could find people to talk to.
I am a virgin and as a child was exposed to sexual activities and I started involving myself in those too.
But in teenage I found out that sex is actually penal insertion and it gave me so much anxiety. I get aroused, the sensation is very intense in my breasts but the idea of having something penetrated in my vagina scares me.
I thought it’ll be fine as I grow up but recently I had to go for a swim during my periods and I tried tampons for the very first time.
The tampon did not go in like my friends told me. It went in 70% after pushing a little but I could feel it the whole time. That something was down there.
They told me to push it so much inside that I should not feel the tampon. That did not happen at all. I felt pain the whole time that tampon was sticking there and even after taking it out I felt pain. Not extreme pain but enough to make me sit in a weird pose.
I urinated after taking it out and even that was painful. .
I am very scared now because I am thinking that I’ll never be able to have sex in future. If this small regular size tampon didn’t go in then how would a penis go in?
